The best thing I did was get involved in some small groups at my Christian church. The love and acceptance in those groups helped me to feel that I really was O.K. It didn't happen over night but it did happen. I urge you to get out of isolation and slowly find people who will love you and accept you just the way you are. You might just be amazed at the love that is waiting to surround you. Seek it and you will find it. Don't believe the lie that you are pitiful, believe the truth that you are Powerful, the power of God resides in you if you'll tap into it and use it.
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A PLACE TO UNLOAD
by Charles R. Swindoll
This thing called life is an awfully long journey. For some, it seems an endless trip, filled with thankless responsibilities and relentless tasks, disappointments and deadlines, and daily demands.
Being imperfect doesnt help. Every so often we make stupid decisions. We say things we wish we could retrieve. Selfishly, we look out for number one and later regret it. We act impulsively and realize, after the fact, how foolish we were, how dumb we looked. On top of all that, we hurt the ones we love the most. All this stuff caves in on us at certain times, and we wonder how anybody could ever love us . . . especially God.
When we start thinking like this, we need to turn our mind to the one anothers in the New Testament. Heres just a sampling: Love one another, build up one another, live in peace with one another, confess your sins to one another, speak to one another, admonish one another, comfort one another, pray for one another.
I deliberately saved my favorite for last: Bear one anothers burdens (Gal. 6:2).
Imagine two mountain hikers trudging along, each carrying a backpack. The one on the left has a tiny, light pack that a kid could carry, while the poor soul on the right is so loaded down we cant even see his head or his body.
Lets imagine what he might be lugging in that pack down that long road. It could be a long-standing grudge thats poisoning his insides. It might be a broken relationship with his wife or one of his kids. That pack could be loaded with unpaid bills, all of them overdue.
The question is, Where can that fella on the right go to unload so the fella on the left can help bear the burden? By sitting in church alongside a few hundred or a couple thousand other folks? Hardly. What he needs most is to be involved in an adult fellowship in a small-group setting, a place where there is person-to-person caring and the opportunity for authentic sharing. Where he will feel free, without embarrassment or shame, to tell his secret or state his struggle; where someone will listen, help him unload, and give him fresh strength.
Adult fellowships and small groups are not miniature church services. They are pockets of people who love Christ and believe in helping one another. They dont point fingers or preach or compare. They are your brothers and sisters in Christ.
Once you begin unloading that pack, youll discover how much easier the journey seems.
Are you involved in a small fellowship group? If not, consider joining or starting a groupespecially if your load is too heavy.

